SO, I’ve talked about this on my Instagram page (@thebeautiful.brave – shameless plug, sorry bout it), BUT there have been many life updates that I would like to share with you all as my readers and supporters.
When I went to Passion 2020 I got a word during one of the worship sessions about going into ministry. Now listen, I’ve thought about this before. I’ve thought about how cool it would be to work for the church and actually step into that role of being a leader within the church, specifically a leader somewhere among student ministry. To many people, this is not any type of “stable career” which I totally understand where they are coming from. It’s a risky move most of the time going into ministry. This is where I was at. I thought I would love to do it, but it isn’t “practical.”
So, when I was at Passion and felt the pull and call to ministry I thought it was insane. Honestly, it scared me a little too. I was praying about what my next steps would be with my life. Would I be applying for nursing school summer 2020 term or would I wait until fall? Should I go back to school or should I not? Many questions people my age are asking and seeking answers too.
SIDE NOTE : Many people would call this “finding out the will of God or what is God’s will for my life.” For all of us, we know what God’s will is for us, to go onto the ends of the Earth sharing the good news, making disciples, and draw others to Jesus. Wherever you are placed in your life, you are called to go and spread the Gospel. This will look different for everyone. Some people will physically go to the ends of the Earth as missionaries. Others might work at a local church, be a teacher/student, or spread the good news as a professional athlete.
I knew that when I got home from Passion I needed to be obedient about this call. Too many times in my life I have heard a word from God and never acted on it until too late or dismissed it. To make it personal, in the past I knew I needed to get out of a relationship way before I actually did. When I dismissed God telling me to leave the relationship things naturally didn’t get better which caused a lot more pain/hurt that prolonged the healing process. I was so confused why God didn’t answer the prayer I was praying the way I wanted him too. Eventually, I saw the light and realized that his ways are greater than my ways and clearly he knows better than I do (but I struggled and still struggle with this).
I applied for the apprenticeship at the Church of Eleven22 (my church home here in Jax) when I got home from Passion. Honestly, I had zero idea of what I was getting myself into, I just knew I needed to be obedient to the call on my life. AND 3 weeks later I am now an apprentice with my church in student ministry, specifically middle school ministry. I have never been so excited to go into this new season of not knowing what comes next.
This is a HUGE step for me. I am the one who always has a plan. I am that girl who is a planner. I am the one who always knows what her next step will be. The fact that I have no real idea of what will be next for me excites me and terrifies me at the same time. Actually letting go of fear and having full trust in a plan that I do not know is unlike me, but I think that’s a good thing. This is what growth and being obedient to what God has planned looks like. Sometimes it truly is not knowing and fully trusting in the Lord’s plan. I am walking proof though that when you are obedient to God, he is faithful and opens doors. How I like to think of it as… if I am faithful, God is faithful in return.
Stepping out & being obedient won’t always be easy & comes with a lot of risk. There is a huge risk here with the pull to go to ministry. Taking time off school/ not trying to get into nursing school right now to be intentional with this apprenticeship is the route I am taking right now. Even though this apprenticeship is only 10-15 hours a week along with babysitting/ nannying 10-15 hours a week, I know that I cannot be fully present and be as diligent as I want if I am also in school. Taking a year off to focus & be intentional with this apprenticeship is my number one priority in life right now. If that means I take time off school to do so, I’m willing to take that risk.
Some verses that I am clinging to right now are :
Jeremiah 29:11, Acts 1:8, Revelation 14:12, Romans 12:2, Romans 5:19